Okay, so I prayed to know what 'truth' is and was willing to die for it if necessary. How often do folks do that? I was a teen in my first year of college.
A few days later I was in meditation, a state of being empty and reverent, when a voice I'd known since early childhood asked me directly, by name, if I was willing to die for what I believed in. I immediately considered Christ Consciousness, though it felt a little empty still. I didn't inquire as to way, I just trusted my sense.
Then I thought of Cosmic Consciousness. It felt whole and I immediately said, "Yes!" I felt a tug from my solar plexus and popped out of my body (OBEs are well documented), turned to look at my body lying across my dorm room bed, and turned back to look where I was going.
Before I could completely turn around I was engulfed, surrounded by, this brilliant white light that had an effervescent, iridescent and high-pitched sensation that accompanied it. It felt like HOME beyond anything I'd imagined to date, and I'd imagined a lot since finding out I was orphaned as a newborn and adopted a month and a half later.
Interestingly, I recognized I could think. I was analyzing the event and was aware I was analyzing it, to being aware I was thinking meant I was not dead, and upon my return I knew, beyond any question or sense, that we are each cosmic consciousness condenses into form, unaware of our true connection with Creation. It isn't about God, it's about Self, the intimate and intricately connected sense with All That Is... Creation itself.
Many years later after some research, study, and playing around with how to express this truth and not be offensive to the 'believers' nor to the 'spiritual' seekers. The whole idea or notion of 'Oneness' is replete with understanding when we ask the right questions, or questions at all, about the truth and understanding of this solid foundation.
So it isn't about the fear of death or wanting comfort from it, it is the fear of living without constraints put on us be religious systems or spiritual paths that demand adherence or compliance with certain rules and regulations. That's a corporation today, a government gone astray, and organizations that control and dominate one's potential freedom from such.
Here's a short video that shares the story succinctly and with wisdom....
